i have this sense of resignation to my fate. i just feel tired. i almost missed my pdoc appt because i had the time wrong. even now that i am running late i am obsessively still trying to procrastinate by straightening the house.
weird feelings you know have no basis in logic. and yet the feelings grip you at your core. feeling like my pdoc is going to be disappointed; feeling like they will decide it is better to drug me into oblivion; feeling like they will just usher me into a padded room and keep me.
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I hope you feel better soon. I know it can be hard sometimes to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Oh come to see me and lets have chix caccitore!
You are so strong... I see it in you. You never talk about it outright but you have it I see it.
I think you have so much more going on in your life than I could ever manage but you never see that you are doing so much.
I wish we could be closer so I could say "look look at what you did just today" and then you would say "oh you know what Joney I did".
Wish you were here with me,
XO
Joney
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