you can ahve part of her, but it will cost you

so since thursday's meltdown at work my productivity has been HIGH. I do a journal a day if they are simple. and today's i completed with a bit of distraction as i had to scan stuff for the lawyer.

but i did not talk. some people came into my cube to chat and i had this "it pains me to talk to you" look on my face; one person looked up, saw the face and walked away in mid sentence.

the T was right. being able to work without the headphones is nice. did not have to put them on until other people came in and began chatting with co-workers.

T said I was mellow or calm. he said it like it wasn't quite a good thing. even he prefers the bubbly me. ha! tuff luck.

and there is the other consequence of sustained concentration. when you finally come out of it, you feel like you have been in a triathalon. i didn't know sitting and looking and typing with 8 fi9ngers could be so exhausting. i ate dinner in the car as i drove home so that i could go to sleep as soon as i finished walking the dogs. I am just waking up.

I need to grade pprs so it looks like sleep is done for the night and tomorrow is my LONG day. but I want to be practically thru my last journal when i talk to my boss' boss on wednesday. And this I managed with being out 1 day.

it's the snap back after a low.