i survived the worst year of my life

my spirit did not.

i'm getting by. going to work. not imploding in any massive way. i'm no longer looking for answers, healing, redemption or whatever else i thought i'd find in therapy.

my true self? why find her? i don't like this world i'd put her in anyway so leave her free somewhere in my psyche safe and sound.

i'm slowly getting all the demons that the hospital and therapy unpacked back into the closet in the back of the attack.

life hasn't stopped. i'm still looking for a job i'd like. considering going to school. that kind of stuff.
i do have to fill the time between now and no longer.