new drug, new hope

it's easter. and once again i seem to have all of my eggs in one basket. except this time i only have one egg -- provigil.

the excessive daytime sleepiness was killing me. i went to pdoc a month early in desperation. he agreed.

med regimin change. down to one antidepressant, 1 mood stabilizer, cut the dose on the seroquel and add in the provigil.

i was supposed to wean of fthe well butrin first but after checking interactions i couldn't wait 6 days so i started half dose of the provigil. it helped.

i'm up to whole dose but i'm not sure it will be enough. for me to be peppy. just enough for me not to be wading thru mud constantly.
but i'll take it.

i'm scared. mental healthcare being what it is, i fell tied to this job and to this place but i know i need to go. i KNOW it. the only thing I can do is begin to stockpile drugs and hope I can get a 6 month supply in my possession by my leave date. but that is another day's worry