Sunday, January 4

supposed to

i am supposed to be applying for a new job tomorrow. its a job i ahve kind of been "waiting" for.

but now, i don't want to. i know it is fear/terror. i know it is feelings of inadequacy. i know i am preparing for rejection to be safe. but i am tired of responding this way -- always coming up with all of the worst scenarios.

grrrrrrrr.

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