I got a new job. it's a job I have been "waiting" for. Something I am more interested in. Pay is better.
There had been so many disappointments in the process that I wasn't excited even when they called to offer me the job monday. Started to feel a bit joyful when i go the offer letter today.
Then I get home and i'm alone and it is so anti-climatic. so draning. the fears and anxieties begin to kick in. why? why can't i just celebrate this and be happy. why can't i believe the crap i shovel to people all day long?
I'm tired. going to go to sleep. i stayed up too late and can't take a seroquel. i think I am going to regret it tomorrow.
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