the porblem with seroquel

I love this drug for the dreamless sleep. I wake up feeling like slept rather than like I lived out my dreams. I'm a little pset that I can not seem to get myself to sleep well without it. Before i would take it for a day or two at night and then be ok without it for a week or even up to 3.
But I guess that is ok too.

What "troubles" me is that if allow myself to kind of lay in bed the next morning, I can lose entire blocks of time in an instant. Even though I am not tired I could go back to sleep in the blink of an eye and sleep for hours. The time I lose gets less and less at the day goes on. But literally by 3 pm I have been upright for no more than 1.5 hours total today.

I tell myself i need that rest after the stressful work week. but the truth is I need to also address things in my apt. So my avoidant mechanism of laying in the bed day dreaming all day does not go well with this med.

But I am going to keep taking it because my day dreams, where my mind wanders at night when I try to fall asleep on my own has also taken weird turns. violence. with no remorse. it scares me because i can see how if enter into a reality that only exists for me then I could be one of those people you hear about on the news.

i'm hoping this is fueled by my menstrual cycle as well. it seems to trigger a lot of rage for me. without the unending depression lying on top of it masking some of its effect i wonder if this is what i get?

I know I should tell the dr. but I don't want to. I don't want the disease to be changing. I don't want another layer to be unearthed. I want a little longer to have this state of OK.