damn my memory.

last night on a re-run episode of numb3rs the therapist told the guy
"if you want to feel better, take a pill; if you want to " and there's where my memory fails me. but the essence of what he said was if you want to BE better do the therapy."

i'm exhausted. up all night fretting. you'd think i would be worried about my dog's toe amputation surgery in a few hours. No, I'm still scared to go to work. I a being so avoidant, I won't launch the email to write one to my boss because I don't know what I will find there.

i can't continue like this.