i went to my alma mater yesterday to help an outside group use the tv lab. while there the dept. chair comes in and says there is only 1 person enrolled in my class so it will be cancelled. and ofcourse that was the day I was going to return my contract and order student textbooks. I was a little disappointed but not heartbroken because teaching that class was going to make my schedule HELLACIOUS! But then he asks me if, for a little less money, I would be willing to give the 1 student an independent study and supervise the students who run the tv and radio stations. HECK YEAH!
and while i was there i met an interesting guy--my age, black, plays in a grunge/rock band with a former co-worker of mine. we sat and discussed video and music and what it was like to be african american and have musical tastes and style that was outside of the mainstream hip hop. in the end he got called to leave the shoot and go back to the studio to attend to something else. when he's leaving he asks for "my card." so does everyine walk around with business cards? cuz truthfully i am not important enoguh in my job to get business cards. i'm lucky they gave me a phone. and we hadn't talked about side businesses or anything. was he trying to say he is interested in talking to me on a personal level? i kind of hope so. so i gave him my cell number and email. i din't ask for his. truthfully, i didn't remmeber his name because when they did the introductios, i was busy assessing the current state of the studio and figuring out what problem needed to be fixed first. (in the studio or in an editing lab, i get pretty tunnel visionally fixated on my work).
but the whole situation does bring up some issues i realize that i have not dealt with as far as me and any kind of relationship with the opposite sex. i have kept to myself when it comes to dating, etc. (and even as of late in forming new close friendships just because of the situations with RJ and my former best friend--can you believe she hasn't spoken to me in a year?) anyway, where was i? oh yeah... avoidance is not the same as dealling with your issues. it seems that i just went to the opposite extreme. it may have kept me from a lot of harm but it presented problems of it's own.
and then ofcourse i am overanalyzing everything way too much.
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sounds to me that he was definitely hoping to pursue further communication.
i would have similar advice for him and all other guys... identical to my previous post but i'm certainly no relationship doctor... thank God for that... i just observe a lot and often times labor over what i see/hear/feel... much like you've done here, which may do nothing but further validate your claim that we both are overanalyzing the situation. :)
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