i texted my sister to ask if she had a basement and a backyard. i ended up calling her at work and crying. she was so concerned that when we got off the phone she called her husband to ask him if i could come stay with them.
but i would have to give up katie. and at first i was going to. but you realize so many things. katie is all i have. and i think in the end my mind is reaching for any excuse to keep me in my misery. because truthfully, if i stay here and end up in the hospital or worse, katie still has no one.
i'm scared. but it helped to have someone acknowledge that it is bad and offer to "take care of me." that boosted me for a bit. i am going to ask for a vacation at work. blow my vacation days and just take a break and try to get my life togeher and deal with some things.
but 1st i ahve to catch up on the 3 weeks of work i have been lying about.
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