still procrastinating

well grades were due tuesday night. it's the wee hours of wednesday and i have nothing. i figure i'll get a nap since i just finished the 2nd coming of dinner and then in the am i will knock it out.

the bad thing is, i started this game the first semester i taught--on the first day i would get to know my students and guess what their grade would be at the end of the course; i'd give myself until after the 1st assignment for any adjustments and then i'd pencil it in my gradebook. i have always been in the right letter range. so ofcourse i am tempted... but since for many there is a big difference between a c- and a c+ i do the math.

oddly enough my mood is up but a little unstable. but it is nice that the curve is between pretty good and moderately depressed instead of between moderately depressed and "i wish i had the guts to end my life" or the last phase brought to you courtesy of lamictal which was one steady "maybe today i will have a heart attack, get hit by a bus, etc. and be put out of my misery."

i see the pdoc thursday. i'm betting he will start phasing out the prozac and possibly raise the lamictal. hopefully he will switch the adderrall to the XR cuz remembering to take it twice is a pain.

and then the excitement of therapy has kind of worn off. she's a bit too peppy and too hyped up on this diet and meeting a man thing. but ofcourse i wonder if i am running because she has hit a nerve? i will stick with it for now.