i decided to just say what they want to hear. my nurse case workers struggle so hard and they do really care about their patients. i had to call in today for check in and they ALL wanted to speak to me on the phone; you'd think I was away at college overseas and calling home to the fam. but i guess in away they are like fam as they have nurtured me.
but i did just stay in the bed most of the morning. and i kept getting lost in tasks. thoughts are in check, but for longer processes things are not working out so much unless i can control the enviornment & stimuli. ah well. I admitted to a small amount of sleeping, not the 7 hours i did after a full night's sleep which had been preceded by a 6 hour nap.
i'm not sure how i am going to get my get up and go back. i'm not sure i ever really had any unless there was a flame under my ass.
bah. but still. when i think about how this sucks i think about being old and this sucking and not about being dead so there is a success there & i'm thankful!
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It's good to know that the nurses care so much about you. I find that nurses who actually really care (and you can often tell who those ones are) about their patients are very therapeutic and helpful in the recovery process.
yes it is. it was the knowledge of how much they cared that allowed me to continue treatment when i was convinced that it was a a waste of time and money. a bit different than my pdoc and T, a more motherly kind of caring i guess.
but the other side of that is sometimes i feel like it is one more person to disappoint, to let down. and i think some times that influences the "face" i put on in group.
hope your okay--lyns
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