Monday, September 22

until november

i need to hang on until November in which case i can go out on leave again and not lose my job.

but i probably won't make it.

i had a nice dinner with a friend last night in which we talked about practically losing everything to this disease and how it has forced you to redefine what "getting better" means.

funny, it was comforting to know that if i don't make it, there would be one person who would understand.

what happens if each time you are interviewed you just keep saying you feel suicidal? would they never release me from a hospital?

1 comment:

Miss Defective said...

They can't release you if you keep saying you're suicidal. However my guess is that they would transfer you to a state run facility (if you weren't already in one). A private psych hospital or a psych ward in your local hospital are like 5 star hotels compared to most state run hospitals.

I know it's hard, but you can make it to November. My goal is to make it to December without being hospitalized cuz I've yet to do that the last four years. Keep fighting and know I'm fighting right next to you.