Friday, November 14

my mind is tormenting me

well i'm back to doing the med tweak dance. a little bit of this, a little bit of that, pinch of this, pinch of that.

It's a bit easier since I started with a clean slate. The cymbalta is not bad; it makes me tired but at a low dose I can deal with it and the low-level of depression left. My brain is on overdrive though and 50mg of seroquel makes me a bit more tired even all day (100mgs puts me in the ready to sleep mode 24/7). SO I guess it is time to try 25mg as it really cleared my head and brightened my mood. Then maybe a bit of provigil to ward of the tiredness. I'll hold off on the last one until I get on a more stable sleep schedule.

My boss commented that I seem to be in a better place. Externally I think yes. Internally my mind still tortures me but only in the background or in quite moments like when I come home.

so I am going to keep going. I'm trying to not get mad or wallow in the struggle of side effects or the condition of my life.

but right now i am going to take a pre-work nap

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I sincerely hope you feel better! Starting on a clean slate of meds is sometimes just the thing. *hugs*