well

survived the holiday. (i guess i can say that now without jinxing myself too much since there are still 12 more hours until mom is delivered back home and i return to my own peace and quiet).

i managed to not get sucked into black friday shopping by being rather passive aggressive and just sleeping. Saturday when the issue came up I got pissed and mom went out with her sister.

it is going to be stressful trying to get reintegrated into life as I have done nothing I needed to. I realize that even though I do only a little for the few people I help, it all breaks up my time into these rather useless blocks where i can not get myself into a rhythm and concentrate. I hate that i feel rather bothered by helping my elderly neighbor; it makes me feel like a bad person, especially since she is always very grateful.

i'd finish this post but i realized i have to go walk her dog before picking up a woman from my church whose car was repo'd.

but all in all it was a good holiday. I found a new fantasy to fixate on and live inside of for awhile. it does make getting out of the bed harder because all i want to do is stay in my fantasy world.