will i ever stop being so angry?

am i really angry or is this just a "side effect" of missing my med? does this mean when i think i am ok i am truly not and the meds are masking my true emotions?

i ended up screaming at mom. yeah i played the victim. and if one more person says "pull yourself up by your boot straps" I am going to slap somebody with the boot.

i look normal enough on the outside so i guess people can't figure out why i wouldn't just pick myself up and change my life. hell, i can't even figure it out.

what people i guess don't get is 80% of the person they think they know is a lie. I am a figment of my imagination. The person they "know" should be able to just handle and accomplish anything.

or maybe when it boils down to it i am truly the most lazy person on the planet.