bah

I have so little to say these days.
I'll let you in on a little secret:
I am morbidly obese and getting obeser. And for whatever reason lately my appetite has been insatiable. and I don't really care.
I look horrible - like a fat bald boy. There is nothing particularly feminine about me and that kind of upsets me. I'm not sure why since I use it to my advatnage to keep potential relationships away. That way I don't have to deal with heartbreak and I don't ahve to worry about my boderline tendancies running amok.
And truthfully, losig weight (as is most of the chores in life) are just too hard. I am overwhelmed at the enormity of the task. I can't even break it down into smaller taks because I still know the big picture is looming and ready to attack. And most of the time Ic an only do something superficial like hide all the junk in the back room.

I'm tired.

Oh yeah and here's the other thing I am wrestling with -- I chose the wrong religion. I am much more a Unitarian than the "standard" Christian.