It's been awhile

Yeah life has been kind of, ya know -- meh. Not bad, not great, just meh. I'm okay with meh.

I found out I was pre-diabetic and given the order to lose weight. My PCP said "now this should motivate you," and then was mystified when I responded "not really."

I have made small strides.
Last week I stuck to my Weight Watchers plan and lost 6lbs. This week not so good but I'll get back on track I hope.

I cleaned & organized the kitchen and have kept it clean & organized for over a week. That's a big deal for me. Next is the bathroom.

My mom made my aunt come do all my backlogged laundry. Since then I have managed to keep up with not letting dirty laundry pile up, but for the life of me I just can't get myself to put it away. It's still in the laundry bags and piled on the dining room table.

And my boss has changed jobs so I am a bit worried, My boss was a riot. She basically had no real rules for me as long as the work got done. I'm a bit afraid of change and trying not to use some of that negative thinking because it will paralyze me.

My ind keeps wandering through my past with all of these what ifs and if onlys. I really don't want to go there because there are no do-overs.

And that's all I got.