maybe it's the meds. i feel like i am angrier. i blew up in the car dealership after my car came back still not right. what was wrong was minor, but it was broken from the last time they had the car (which was 2 weeks ago) and they didn't fix it. made me think they either did no repair on the car this time or they did sloppy work or its a freaking cheap car. any of the answers above mean i am not happy, every time i drive the car or make the payment. so even though i was hoping to stabilize my finances in a few years by having no car payment, it looks like i will be getting another car. hopefully cmh can help me get a good used car.
and i don't want to leave the apartment. there comes a time when i just can't get myself to go. the shower has been running for 10 minutes but i am in here blogging. once i get out i put on the mask. it's just that first step (said the bungee jumper).
part of the drain is giving to people and not feeling like i get in return what i want. see i've tried to limit myself to people who do for me in return, not because they owe me but because they are generous people. but the problem is people give me what they think i need and not what i necessarily want. but then i guess when you don't tell people what it is; i just don't want to sound ungrateful. plus there is a chance that they just won't give it to me anyway as has been the case with my mom, my dad and cmh and even rj.
i'd try to find more, but i am late and it is raining and i feel a cry coming on.
4 comments:
Sorry to hear about the car. Hope you will find a good car for the next one.
Hang in there.
when you say "i am late" do you mean YOU are "late" or it's getting late? just curious because the former could explain the mood(s).
it's getting late!
Oh I hear you on all counts. I am feeling you today...
XO
J
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