ritalin

this is what the pdoc thinks will help. he's trying to peel away the symptoms that are the most crippling first and the latest is my inability to function at work either because i am distracted, sleep or just not there. while he is not sure i am add, he knows that ritalin should give me more energy during the day which may get me back on track. the apathy can apparently be attributed to longterm dosage with some antidepressants like prozac. but the prozac is still having some anti depressant effects on me so we can not quit it until we find something else that helps.

i was discussing my pharmaceutical cocktail with a friend who seemed concerned because some of what she read said you should not use ritalin to treat depression. and i just wanted to log off and not talk to her because i don't need any incentive to not trust the dr. and stop my meds and treatment and plummet to the depths of hell from which i ma sure i will not return. i have to have blind faith in this dr. somehow i feel like he may be my last hope. hell his office is moving 20 minutes away and yet i will follow.

people at work are noticing that my hair gets shorter every day.

i'm tired but don't feel like i could sleep. maybe i should go to work--i have no probs falling asleep there.