not fast thoughts just lot's of them, thinking thru things. my mind is like the internet... lot's of places and interconnection, but you strat of on one page/thought, follow a link and 3 clicks later you don't know where you are. and my mind has no back button.
was thinking about families and my mom. realizing that my mom stole form me my youth. not my childhood, i had a great one of those, but as i gre and should ahve been dipping a toe into the pool of life, my mom was on the shore screaming that it was too rough, that i would drown, that there were sharks and i had to wait for atleast 5 years after eating so i wouldn't cramp up.
and so i didn't venture much. and when i did i made horrendous mistakes mainly form a lack of experience and knowledge.
i have been pretending to be an adult. but i am very much stuck at a point in my youth. how do i do this with no foundation? you can notbe a successful adult without going thru youth can you? i guess i should go and talk this over with the T whom I see in 45 minutes.
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