i'm back to sleeping every availble moment. when i wake up i still feel soooo tired. i guess beause of recent discussions with the T i realized a bit more about my sleeping. it is definitley a coping mechanism for me. i sleep to not be awake and unhappy. the darkness can not get me when i am alseep.
actually it s not the sleep. i am usually in my bed day dreaming, creating the life i want and controlling it and i just drift off to sleep. it's getting to the point where everything is to much to deal with. the T keeps saying that staying in pain is harder than trying to fight it in therapy.
but that is so not true for em right now. i am back to binge eating and sleeping rather constantly. i'm really hoping that this may be a PMDD symptom and that it will pass when menstration begins.
my neighbors bombarded my house yesterday. they were attempting to be helpful. they ended up making my home feel like it was not even safe. i tried to jokingly explain. trying to let one of them in a bit is how i ended up in that process. she has a mom as emotionally difficult as mine. but she doesn't get THIS. another one of those "just pick up and make your life better" people.
ah well.
2 comments:
I too have been sleepin alot lately and binge eating. I guess it is part of the depression and being unemployed. Hang in there kiddo!
Sans,
I can see you are struggling here. I know sleep is sometimes the only respite we can get from our own heads. I hope you feel better soon.
Hugs
Polar B.
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