Friday, August 31

alls well kinda

so partial was ok. people are nice. T in program start "jumping in your shit" from moment 1. doesn't help that i am vaguely hypomanic.
the major recurrent depression thing is a bitch. and i read about topamax (drug du jour) and i ma not so sure. and i am tired. ands pissy and want to cry and scream and be mean.

i really need this to work. work just threw me a loop because working part time jobs means i can be fired during my disability. so the $$ worries are back. going to call office in charge and see if i can get an exemption. but truthfully, i just don't care. take the car, take the apt. hell you can have the health insurance and the pills--they were just reasons to stay sane and alive, reasons to keep trying. and we all know i'm not that find of living right now any way.

i'm really sorry.

1 comment:

Marie said...

love ya sweetie--i know its rough try to keep plugging away at it

you never said if you had arts and crafts--i had to laugh when you wrote that because believe it or not the partial program i went to did--if so i expect a pot holder or maybe one of those cool beaded friendship bracelet thingys or better yet i could really use a new ashtray!!!

lyns
marie