doubt

cmh called. he had tried to stop by the other day but the trazadone really knocked me out. so i called him back. and i told him about the borderline and the hospital. and he tried to give me the pep talk. and i tried to tell him there was more darkness than he could possibly know.

and we talked for about an hour and by the end i wanted to believe him when he said they were crazy not me. but i know better. he said he'd call or maybe come by in the next few days. i hope he runs for his life.