a celebration of the "haven't i been here before" nature of depression
a mourning of darkness, a longing for light, but hopefully, in the end, a tale of survival.
Saturday, September 22
what would you give up for sanity?
the hand tremors don't seem to be subsiding.
and with that, the depression has sucked up one more dream because you can't shoot video with shaky hands (even with a tripod).
ah well. I'm not suicidal and that's all that counts.
okay that was weird--tried to comment and then it all turned blue on me!!! can't wait to see what it looks like when your done
just wanted to say--dreams are worthless if your dead--work on getting and staying stable first--the dreams will come later--funny thing is, your dreams may all change once your mind has calmed
haha, sorry. trying to focus a catastrophizing mind on something else by changing colors on the blog.
yeah i kind of got one foot in the door of stable and have totally now shot past the rest of it.
At any rate a major portion of the shakes is the Adderall. with the effexor and added wellbutrin it is tooooooooo much at 60 mgs since the other 2 are both activating themselves.
so monday i will ask him to a-knock down the dose and b-return me to the no xr which is fast acting so i can take it when i feel tired and shouldn't and won't be in my system long enough to interrupt my sleep if i need to take it late.
funny how everyone is so different--i do so much better on the xr--maintaining a level amount in my system at all times is the best for me--but then again i rely on sero to sleep--hmmmm :)
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okay that was weird--tried to comment and then it all turned blue on me!!! can't wait to see what it looks like when your done
just wanted to say--dreams are worthless if your dead--work on getting and staying stable first--the dreams will come later--funny thing is, your dreams may all change once your mind has calmed
lyns
marie
haha, sorry. trying to focus a catastrophizing mind on something else by changing colors on the blog.
yeah i kind of got one foot in the door of stable and have totally now shot past the rest of it.
At any rate a major portion of the shakes is the Adderall. with the effexor and added wellbutrin it is tooooooooo much at 60 mgs since the other 2 are both activating themselves.
so monday i will ask him to a-knock down the dose and b-return me to the no xr which is fast acting so i can take it when i feel tired and shouldn't and won't be in my system long enough to interrupt my sleep if i need to take it late.
Man they should give me a MD.
funny how everyone is so different--i do so much better on the xr--maintaining a level amount in my system at all times is the best for me--but then again i rely on sero to sleep--hmmmm :)
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