the alarm went off at 6. i turned it off and rolled over to just rest my eyes a bit more and then it was 7:30. I don't even remember falling asleep. I got up, ate waffles, walked the dogs, came home, took the bags of laundry out of the car, and worked at the computer for 20 minutes. it's now 9:20 and I am yawning every minute and exhausted. like could go back to sleep for hours exhausted. in 9 minutes i will be late for work but i am too tied to rise and shower. my arms hurt my ankles hurt and my eyes feel heavy. I took 200 mgs of provigil 2 hours ago and it should be kicked in by now.

Reasons to live today

• need to finish grading student work; i gave my word
  
• need to finish slide show for church function; i gave my word
  
• need to find home for my dog; i don't trust that my mom would take the best care of her even though she would mean well.
  
• need to clean my house and get rid of my junk so i won't look like my mom
• need to write a will & directions for my funeral so my mother won't do something ridiculous
  
• need to go to the bank and cash pay checks; i worked for it and they aren't getting it back
  
• don't want to disappoint my p-doc; he gives me hugs and tells me he thinks of me like someone in his own family.
  
• i haven't gotten my tax incentive check yet & don't want uncle sam to get that back
  
• i haven't gotten my inheritance check yet & don't want the siblings i odn't like to get my share
  
• i am teaching a summer course which starts in a week or two; i gave my word