i didn't go

in the end when i began to get dressed after over sleeping i realized i had shaved half my head last night. now i remember cutting some hair, but not really the extent. it's my kind of SI. it's the one my last therapist and nurse managers in the hospital kind of were at odds about because i felt like there was really no injury.

i start basically obsessing that there is a hair out of place and try to fix it and then keep trying to fix and then end up with a patch missing and then do something radical to cover up the major fuck up. i have gone completely kojak bald many a month now.

but i do need to invest in a decent wig. and since i couldn't find my head scarvs, i just went back to sleep.