maybe knowledge isn't such a good thing

1. the physical symptoms are beginning to be unbearable
2. my mind is probably doing this to me
3. no meds will fix this as my depression is rooted in a personality disorder (i heard this on a podcast from a psychologist)
4. i can't afford the therapy required to adequately battle this/undo 36 years of warped thinking.
   
5. i just have to suck it up