I'm hanging in there. How about you?

Work is stressful. I'm not depressed about it but I am shutting down a bit and being a bit avoidant.

Other than that, my personal life is shaky and my home life is HELL only because everyone is jumping on the "you need to clean and organize your house and let me help you do it" bandwagon. Help isn't a bad thing but I don't like the sense of my privacy being invaded and the loss of control.

Plus a friend said to me, "when your house is clean, we can start hanging out at your place." It made me panic. It made me realize that I don't want that per se because people don't take the hint when I just need to be alone to refresh. Actually there is one friend who gets it and I go to her house to hide from everyone else. I try not to do that too often because I know she is like me and even I am an invasion of her privacy and sanctuary.

That's it. I kept thinking my meds needed to be tweaked but the pdoc says no. He told me he'd rather I go back to therapy than raise the doses or add anything new.  I am sure some nights of seroquel induced sleep would do me well but it is such an inconvenient drug when you need to get stuff done.

ah well. If this is as good as it gets I'll take it.