The cleaning has been good...

My neighhbors came and helped and the place looked great. I needed to continue and the place looks like organized mayhem, BUT I am still marking things to go.

Hannah commented on my previous post...

I hope that by clearing out some stuff from your house it helps your mind feel more free - often I find that if I can get the energy to 'sort' something in the house it's almost as though I've sorted a little bit of my mind. 

I think Hannah is right. Just the act of letting somethings go even though I REALLY wanted to keep them (for no good reason) made me feel like the disease lost a bit of its grip for a moment. I also discovered that I attach sentimental value to way too many things. I decided that letting go of the things was not letting go of the people/memories.

It sometimes gets a little overwhelming so now I have to convince myself that it does not have to be perfect. I only need to make the apt. look nice and be reasonably functional. I can improve later.